went gwc to meet simin and kah yin yest. helped me with my 1st 3 months maths. its driving me crazy! kah yin was very helpful!! i asked for help for practically every question? hehez.. missed them to bits!!

came home in a bad mood. bro brought a friend home. his friend was so lame that i've got nothing to say. was trying hard not to laugh during dinner. *laughs* daddy was funny too. he scolded me cause i forgot to take allowance from him. i think he's worried i will not have enough to eat. *laughs* cute daddy.

stayed in front of my table the whole night. wanted to do maths, but cant seem to concentrate. that one sms one and the half week ago set me thinking. first time in my life i wrote and wrote. i wrote out the whole incident. i cried till i could not breath. and it finally dawned on me. i finally understood what ms yee and yishi were trying to tell me for the past 2 yrs. i finally understood. i saw both sides instead of the one sided thinking i had for the past 2 yrs. i have the thank the person who was guiding me down my memory lane last night. you helped me in clearing all the emotions i had in me. i saw the clear picture, i saw what really happened. and i finally understood what had happened, why it happened. thank you. really, thank you.

yishi, i really need to thank you. thank you for abandoning your work for me. you knew that i only needed someone to vent my anger and frustration on. you knew that i called you to argue with you. yet, you did not hang up on me. you argued back with me, you reasoned with me. you let me vent out my frustrations. thank you. without you yesterday night, i doubt i will be able to hold on till now. i would not be able to attain this new understanding. yishi, i love you. i really do! and i know you love me too!!! *laughs* thank you gal. really, thank you!

where were you when i needed you the most?

talking about crying, had to hide from everyone this morning. bro will scold me for crying, daddy will ask who made me cry, mummy will worry about me fainting due to my emotions. haha.. so in order not to make anyone worry, i hide in my room till everyone left the house!

bro has camp. gone for 3 days i think. shit, i miss him alr! i miss suaning him and bickering with me. dammit.