i haven't been so happy for such a long time!!!

represented jj to perform at this exchange program at nanyang cc last night. it was an exchange program with 60 jap high sch gals!!! they are all so pretty and all so nice n sweet!!! and their hairstyles are all so cool!!! although we had so much trouble trying to communicate with each other, we had lotsa fun with each other too!!! took many many pics with them too!!! they are all so sweet!!! at the end of the program, all of them started to give us so many sweets and all sorts of gifts!! i felt so bad cos i didnt prepare anything for them at all!! i didnt even know that we will be able to interact with them!! i thought it will be the kind like perf and can leave kinda program???!!?? i was so touched by them!!! they gave us so many things!! and there was this gal she folded so much origami for us!!! we folded hearts for them too!!! she folded till her hand was shaking so badly!!! i was so touched!!! the last moments with them were the most touching!! we kept telling each other ' hope to see u again'!! they even said this in eng!! although i know that it is quite impossible for us to meet again, we just needed to tell each other that!! *laughs* we even hugged each other goodbye!! we had to ask them politely is it okie to hug cause we didnt know if its okie with them.. in the end we had a mass hugging session. it was so saddening yet so touching!! we were like people of two different cultures being brought together for interaction. although language was a huge barrier btw us, we tried to make use of our limited knowledge of jap, they tried to make use of their knowledge of eng, and with the huge amt of usage of hand signs, we managed to understand what the other party is trying to say!!! *laughs* its been sucha long time since i was so happy receiving gifts and talking to pple!! im also very touched when one of them can remember my name and actually told serena to ask me to take pix with them!! we had only known each other for less than 2 hrs!!! im so so so so so touched!!! *laughs* as usual i nearly cried!!! nearly!! but i didnt!! aint u proud of me!!! i wanna meet them again!! i wanna play with them again!!! we kept trying to take as many pics as possible cause we knew that it will be the only way we can remember each other after last night. this is so saddening!!! i hate goodbyes!!! even when they were on the way out they still kept turning ard to wave bye to us!!! they are so nice so sweet so pretty and they touched me so much so much!!!! i will always remember this day!!!

alrights, just finish watching first box of dang oh. still have two more boxes to go. the last date btw them is so touching!!! i just cant stop crying!!! it brought back so much memories!! *laughs* im being an idiot again!! hahaa...

look, i think im able to live my life without you too.

i think i just gave up sth that might mean so much to me. is it a regret? i dont know. all i know is that i didnt give a chance. i lost it, once again.