oh my!! i cant believe i almost forgot something so important!!! its shin hyesung's bday today!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYESUNG!!! May all your wishes come true!! Stay healthy and happy!!! Take cares!!! ^ ^ thx to hwei sie for reminding me!!

hmm, had been rather busy these few days, this explains the lack of update on my blog!!! had so much fun these few days!!

alrights, fri was crescent prom. Though it was not my prom, it was my jr's prom!! zhen came over early in the morning. left her things at my place. we headed down to silkcut to do her hair. it turned out awesome!! nice nice nice!! went to great world. shopped ard for mini skirts but didnt find any nice ones. *sadx* headed down to town. shopped ard. was taking spastic pics at taka!! both of us took turns taking pics with the 2 cams that we had!! *fun fun* went to hollywood secrets to get her makeup done. susie and phy joined us there. met joyce n her friend there as well!! all of them looked so pretty!!! im so proud of my jrs!! alrights, we then took a cab down to merchant court. took lotsa pics once again. susie, phy, one nice nice teacher and i were busy eating the nuts on the table!!! we were too hungry!! candice cabbed down to join us!! my lovely wife!!! took somemore pics with all those pretty ladies before these 4 old seniors decided to leave. im just so old!! phy, susie, candice and i went for a walk from merchant court to raffles place. decided to have dinner at uncle's cafe!! we walked past singapore river, down clarke quay. pretty view!! went in the clarke quay's macs to buy shakey fries. the macs looks lovely!! nice place to hangout!! went uncle's shop to eat. ate so much that we were all so full!!! had a real hilarious time talking at uncle's shop!! some things were censored too!! uncle was like giving us weird looks all the time!! so long didnt hangout together at uncle's shop alr!! had so much fun!! and thank you uncle kenneth!! thx for opening the shop till so late for us!!! you are the best!!!! i love strawberry red tea!!! -beams- after all the food, we headed down to esplanade to take pics!! *pretty pretty* watch the malay performance there before we found a place to sit and chat!! took pics once again!!! *nice nice* chatted till quite late before heading home. *sadx* I WILL MISS YOU GIRLS!!!

waited for zhen to reach my place after her prom. she knows how to come my place but she doesnt know the address to my place. aint she fabulous?? *hehe* alrights, chatted abt her prom. once again, we took lots of pics together!! many many spastic pictures!!! we took like 50+ with my cam only? we still took many with her cam?? *hehe* we were self-obsessed!! chatted with phy on the fone. slpt at 3 plus? i had to wake up at 7.30 for ballet? im just so fabulous!!

ballet was rather tough on sat. guess all the stress is having its effect on us alr. exam is just round the corner and our work is horrendous? junie!!! put in more effort!!!

mummy's soup was fabulous yest night!!! she brewed my fav soup!!! the baked salmon was awesome too!!! i ate so much that i couldnt even sit properly!!! my stomach was huge!!! i love mummy's cooking!!! bro even came home early to drink the soup!!! this just shows how fabulous my mummy's cooking is!!! i miss her cooking!!!!! i miss watching daddy and mummy bicker over the beating of the egg while cooking!!! i know this is so stupid. but i like it!!! ^ ^

went for shcj meeting on sat. folded many cranes for andy. GET WELL SOON ANDY!!! and stop straining yourself!! please rest well!!!

found this poem online.

Darkness
by Kirsti A. Dyer

My light and my life
provided me hope for a future,
a reason to live
and the strength to exist.

Suddenly extinguished,
taken away without warning.
I was abandoned,
left in the darkness
trying to survive
searching for any glimmer
on the distant horizon.

I stand precariously
on a piece of solid ground
barely large enough for my feet.
Around me, a vast expanse
of desolation and emptiness
for as far as I can tell.

It waits
with extending arms
to engulf and surround me
in a permanent shadow.

I remain tenuously balanced
on this small bit of solid footing
Providing me the last vestiges of hope,
Unsure where to turn
or how to find an escape.

No path in sight,
it has decayed into the abyss.
No light to guide my footsteps,
it has been withdrawn.

In complete blackness
I close my eyes
waiting to fall.

A light appears before me
no,
from within me.

I discover
a brilliance inside
An internal source of strength, power
and illumination.

This force surges through my body
filling me with courage.
I open my eyes once more
in the darkness
finally lose my balance,
and descend
into the eternal night.

But in falling,
I discover that I possess wings.

With new courage, my own light,
and wings to save me
from the everlasting darkness
I take flight
high above the waiting chasm
towards a faint glimmer
far on the horizon
and hope.

credits: Journey of Hearts A Healing Place in CyberSpace

It is alright to be weak, it is alright to cry. Please do not keep everything to yourself, to end up taking your own life. The pain is great, it is overbearing. Please have faith in yourself. You can survive this pain. You WILL survive this pain. You WILL win over this pain. Life still has to go on. EARTH is still rotating around the sun. The birds are still chirping. Your loss is great. I know. Please be strong. That's all I can offer you.

I cant be there for you.
No hugs of comfort, no staying by your side.
You had caused me too much hurt.
I can only console you from here.
I cant even bring myself to speak to you.
I hope this poem is of help to you.
Take care.