Went to pay respects to my granddad yest. If phy wasn't there, I guess I would have give in to the impulse to breakdown and cry. It's been 11 years. Not much memories too. Yet a great deal of respect. I dont remember myself crying. Maybe cause I was too young. Am always envious of people who had granddad doting on them. There's this boy whom I see everyday at Commonwealth bus stop. His granddad will bring him to the bus stop to take 105. He was always be waving vigourously to his granddad from the bus window. Yes, I envy him. I didn't have the chance to do that.

Escaped school for the day. I need to sleep. Didnt do any work at all today. I spent the whole morning sitting on my sofa and staring at the window. The view outside is enchanting you know? The clouds are of different shapes and sizes. They are telling a story of their own. Met yy for lunch. Pizza Hut!!! ^.^ Delicious!! Borrowed books with m.y.'s card. I still haven't returned the books I borrowed the last time. Lazy. >.<>.<

For the past week, I learnt. No point isn't it? You made ur priorities clear. Clinging on won't work, or will it? I don't plan to try. Why? For a very simple reason. If this fail, you have someone to fall back on, while I don't. I will be left alone to lick on my gaping wounds again. It wasn't fun the last time round. It's time for me to stop harbouring hopes. The greater the hope the greater the disappointment.

Mood is swinging worse than the yoyo these past few days. Going for a run with parents tomorrow. Hope that it will be able to clear me up.

It's amazing how 6 grown-up guys can share such amazing friendships. I can't even handle a friendship with two people. It's something I envy them for, and something I admire them for. Maybe that's why I can't stop watching them? Cause I need to watch that amazing friendship to believe that true friends exist? And that they have something that I will never be able to attain? Something more important than life itself?

Yuxin is back for HK!!! Home for steamboat tomorrow!!! DELICIOUS!! ^.^ Can't wait!! There's no place like home!! =)